So I didn't end up getting that job I talked about last time. So many people showed up to interview, and I'm sure many many more have gone to volunteer. Basically a bust. It bothers me more because it was a group interview, with the existing employees deciding if they thought we would be good for the position; and they obviously thought poorly of me.
School has not been going well. I feel very lost. Even if I thought I could handle going to vet school at this point, my grades wouldn't get me in anywhere. I have nothing to work towards. I'm just a disappointment.
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Saturday, March 9, 2013
A couple of days ago I had space between classes and decided to go to a talk by one of the Animal Science professors about nutrition. I'm not all that interested in nutrition --I surprised myself by getting a B in the course, though, despite stories of most people failing it on the first try (plus the fact that I'm no good with math)-- but I decided to check it out. It was interesting, and listening to him speak about all the animals and their well-being brought back a little something in me. I think this quarter has been rough for me mentally because of the lack of major courses in my schedule. I've been feeling better about things recently, but finals sneaking up around the corner still has me stressed.
The same day I went to listen to that presentation I saw a flyer advertising a volunteer program at a vet clinic. It said they would start in late February or early March, and when I called they said they already started training, but I went today and turned in a resume for it. The people actually seemed glad to have volunteers, and it looks like there's a good chance they'll call me next time they're training. If they do let me volunteer, I'm hoping that I could get a job there over the summer, too. Me being optimistic.
The same day I went to listen to that presentation I saw a flyer advertising a volunteer program at a vet clinic. It said they would start in late February or early March, and when I called they said they already started training, but I went today and turned in a resume for it. The people actually seemed glad to have volunteers, and it looks like there's a good chance they'll call me next time they're training. If they do let me volunteer, I'm hoping that I could get a job there over the summer, too. Me being optimistic.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
For-profit
“Your vet may not have gotten into vet school! Vets who can’t get into traditional U.S. veterinary programs due to bad grades and poor test scores often go to for-profit schools in the Caribbean, where, basically, if you can pay the tuition, you get in.” (Link)
Ouch... And St. George's was one of the school's I really thought about applying to, too. Feels great to get affirmation of your failures.
Monday, February 25, 2013
Reevaluations
Sometimes I don't know where I get my motivation from. There are days, few and far between, where I feel so empowered, and sure of myself. The past year has been full of days very opposite from that. I've been reevaluating my educational goals and questioning myself a lot. I've decided that I don't want to go to vet school. At least not now.
Maybe someday in the future I'll be inspired to pursue a DVM, but right now I don't think I could handle it. Even if I did decide to go I don't have the grades to get in. I was never all that sure about college, but I was aware that it was something expected of me. I'm not a first-generation college student. On my dad's side, he, his sister, and their parents have all received bachelors degrees or higher. It's nothing special that I made it into college. And being in college, I've learned that the main thing they care about is getting you in and out in 4 years. The idea of not graduating in 4 years seemed like a horrible thing, because not graduating on time means you're not as smart, or good enough. I know I'm not the smartest person, but I decided that I don't care about graduating "on time." If I'm spending all this money and putting myself through all this stress I should do what I want to do, at my own pace. College is supposed to be about exploring your options, discovering new things, and taking classes that you're interested in, not limiting yourself to a strict list of graduation requirements. If I can help it, I'm not going to take more than 3 academic classes at a time to give myself some breathing room, and time for potential jobs or volunteer things.
I'm trying to stay positive, but its been hard.
Anyways, my classes this quarter are: Biology (intro to organismal form and function), Philosophy (ethics), English (great books: romanticism through modern literature), and Music (jazz styles). That's 3 GE's and one support course. It's hard to keep up with all of the reading; I've been doing a poor job of it so far. I'm fairly confident that I'll pass everything, but I can't say I'll do so with the best grades. We'll just have to see how it goes.
Maybe someday in the future I'll be inspired to pursue a DVM, but right now I don't think I could handle it. Even if I did decide to go I don't have the grades to get in. I was never all that sure about college, but I was aware that it was something expected of me. I'm not a first-generation college student. On my dad's side, he, his sister, and their parents have all received bachelors degrees or higher. It's nothing special that I made it into college. And being in college, I've learned that the main thing they care about is getting you in and out in 4 years. The idea of not graduating in 4 years seemed like a horrible thing, because not graduating on time means you're not as smart, or good enough. I know I'm not the smartest person, but I decided that I don't care about graduating "on time." If I'm spending all this money and putting myself through all this stress I should do what I want to do, at my own pace. College is supposed to be about exploring your options, discovering new things, and taking classes that you're interested in, not limiting yourself to a strict list of graduation requirements. If I can help it, I'm not going to take more than 3 academic classes at a time to give myself some breathing room, and time for potential jobs or volunteer things.
I'm trying to stay positive, but its been hard.
Anyways, my classes this quarter are: Biology (intro to organismal form and function), Philosophy (ethics), English (great books: romanticism through modern literature), and Music (jazz styles). That's 3 GE's and one support course. It's hard to keep up with all of the reading; I've been doing a poor job of it so far. I'm fairly confident that I'll pass everything, but I can't say I'll do so with the best grades. We'll just have to see how it goes.
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