Apparently I'm not very good about keeping up with this blog. I'll think about writing something but then I don't end up doing it. I think right now I only started writing because I'm feeling depressed. I have been for the past week or so. I feel on the verge of tears multiple times throughout the day; I think a big part of it is loneliness. I have some friends here, and am even starting to make new ones, but I miss my friends at home. I'm sure it all coincides with finals and stress, though I hardly ever feel like I'm stressed.
Loneliness... I go through these phases all the time, I feel like I always have, and always bounce back, but I feel it more now. I don't think I've wanted to cry so much in a long time.
I have last priority to register for classes, which really sucks. I'll have to work to crash classes and stuff so I can stay a full-time student (having 12+ units). Most of the classes I want and need are already half full, and this was only the first week or registration. I don't go until the 1st of December.
I'm worried about not passing my Chem class. I went down to a 70.3% or so because I keep getting D's on the midterms. The most frustrating part is that I knew how to do everything, I just can't do it nearly as fast enough to finish the test. I started getting better grades on my quizzes though, which has bumped me back up to a 73.4%, but we have another midterm on Monday. I might do better on it since the material isn't as involved (lewis structures, ionization energies, quantum numbers), but we'll see. If I could scrape out a B on this test I would be so happy. That of course probably requires me to keep studying, but since I feel like crap I don't feel like doing anything.
I haven't done the homework to review for my Stats quiz either, which is also on Monday (he doesn't collect it). I have a B in that class right now, but if I don't get a B or better on the final -- which isn't cumulative, thank god-- I could drop down to a C, since he curves the class. As for my Meat class I'm pretty content with where I am. I got high B's on both midterms, so if I can do that or better on the final, and get an A in the Lab, he might just give me an A. My GPA really needs that A... Then there's Philosophy. Apparently my projected grade is a D+ and I'm not completely sure why, which is also kinda depressing.
